Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Companionable silence. Two friends in a space together. No conversation. Each engrossed in their own activity. Still a closeness. An intimacy.
I saw these two nestled shells alone on a stretch of sand. Tybee is not really a great beach for lots of shells. Sand sand and more sand. I loved the way these two represented my thoughts about my oldest daughter and I. We got up early on Sunday and walked the beach - watching sunrise and the tide pulling out. There was very little conversation between us and yet I felt incredibly close to her and blessed by her beautiful presence. She will be 20 this summer - I realize how different things are becoming as they approach adulthood. I was basking in the true beauty of a family weekend, because I know there will be fewer of these kinds of trips where we all are together.
It was a wonderful trip.
I have a beautiful life.
Monday, June 28, 2010
I already sent this as a text message, but I am posting here too.
Friday, June 25, 2010
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
I gathered card making supplies. I had an idea. I was focused. I screwed up card after card. I tossed things in the trash.
I was obviously forcing myself to do something what just wasn't gonna happen. So I declared card making for last night a failure.
Well I had already punched these beautiful birds from handpainted paper. I had tags punched. I try to keep neutral tags most of the time. And I had stamps and ink at the ready.
Quick and easy.
I took a quickie cell phone picture and messaged the picture and this message.
"these sweet birds softly sing songs of hope and joy."
The tags are 2.5 inches by 1.25 inches. cream background. handpainted paper birds, silver stamped words and novelty thread strings. This picture doesn't capture the tiny sparkles of glimmer mist.
any takers on sets of 10 of these? $2.50 US dollars. mailed anywhere in the USA. email me at teresahome <@> juno
these went much smoother than the cards.
I'm thinking it may be time for an etsy shop. MaryAnn HELP!!!! Pretty please.
Monday, June 21, 2010
I have officially reached full storage in my studio. Damn - I have got to be serious about getting rid of stuff. I spent the weekend free time working on cleaning and putting away shit in my studio. I look at all those wonderful studios at the blog party and I realize I have been stuffing stuff for way too long.
I turned the ac on in the studio - it is time for some creative project immersion.
The weekend was highly productive. Poca Dog went to the vet. Not nearly as exhausting as I thought it might be. We are boarding her this coming weekend and she had to have a couple of shots before she could stay.
After the vet - I took off to the local farmers market. Fresh blueberries. Fresh corn. Fresh baked bread. Fresh basil (in a rather large qty).
I made pesto. There is a first time for everything. Never made pesto in my life. Love it. College Girl loves it. So we wanted to learn how. But because "I am a few bricks shy of a load", I didn't make it using a traditional recipe.
Sure I looked at them - thought about it even. Then went off on my own course and made it like this.
Food processor bowl full of fresh basil leaves. (I have a smaller food processor) Pulse until slighty shredded. Add a couple handfuls of pecans (yes pecans). Then a generous dose of grated parmesan cheese. Process while slowly streaming in olive oil until you like the consistency. salt and pepper to taste. After I tasted this - I also added a bit (2 or 3 tablespoons) of lemon juice.
Serve on pasta with fresh veggies....
Yes there are spagetti noodles mixed in. A necessity due to not having enough noodles of the same kind.
In College Girl's words ----- THIS CRAP IS GOOD.
Friday, June 18, 2010
For those of you who are moms, think back to a sick baby. Just wants mama, stuffy head and nose means no laying that baby down. So you walk, or rock, or bounce, or whatever it takes to keep baby quiet. Mama is tired - worn out - exhausted.
Now multiply that feeling times at least 10. That is what I am battling. And today - I really wanted to just stay in the bed.
But I didn't - I am at work and fighting thru the day. I have painting to attack.
So I have just a few pictures to share.
Love that Softball Princess found a place to store bouncy balls.
Thursday, June 17, 2010
College Girl is a Dean's List Chemistry Major. She has maintained those grades while being an athlete as well. Mama is proud of this accomplishment. She is working this summer and taking summer classes. Wants to double major. Crazy.
Most of these "nerdy science kids" are just that -- NERDY --
Not College Girl - she is into fashion. Cooking. Sewing. Her social life is important. Her church work is important to her. On top of all that, this very smart kid is an artist. Again -- a bit of a rarity.
She will invade my studio and throw together things. These are black and white magazine and college catalog images (cause mom saves everything) cropped and cut into a skyline. Note, not all of these were buildings initially. The arm and hand - another cutout of a statue from somewhere.
This is mixed media collage - College Girl Style.
I can't even begin to do this kind of work.
I love that purple skyline.
I have a beautiful life.
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
I snagged the photo below from somewhere. If this is a space you recognize please let me know, I would love to give credit. The reason I'll be just watching is because as much as I would love to have a studio that looked like this....
Mine looks like this..... Notice the hobby lobby stuff still in its bag. A sure sign of hoarding tendency.
Uninterrupted cleaning time must be scheduled.
But you know what -- even in the middle of all that mess -- I have a beautiful life. And I am living quite happily today.
Monday, June 14, 2010
Last week was VBS. Wonderful - but exhausting. Then College Girl wanted to have a Cream Soda gathering at the house on Friday night. She cleaned so I have no problem with that.
When I got up on Saturday morning I found these...
A pile of bottle caps. Mind you - a neat pile of bottle caps on a tray on the table. She has been trained really well.
I also found this ......
Neat rows of their bottles. These two things and a few leftover food items (already put away) were the only signs of a gathering at all. I like that.
There was a nap. Then back to that studio. It actually looks like more of a storage shed right now. I had these huge sheets of paper, bits and bobbs have been cut from them for various church projects. I never work this large, they were a pain to store effectively, and they were part of what was so overwhelming.
Friday, June 11, 2010
This has been a grueling week. Work - and VBS. Early mornings into late nights. Tonight is the final night and I have already informed my family that "my happy little is planning NOTHING for Saturday." Get it. NOT ONE DAMN THING. Feed yourselves. Mom has a DO NOT DISTURB sign around her neck. There.
This is a picture of goodies. These came from Upstairs at the Hardware Store.
Love the pink trim crocheted onto twisted rickrack. That idea may find its way into the crochet wall trim idea.
One last little detail shot. This kinda strange green ric rac was in there. I love it. Its not mint, more of a creamed green and this card of buttons is the same greenish hue. Love it. Green being one of my favorite colors and all.
Thursday, June 10, 2010
I have this picture in my inspiration book. I actually have several versions of crochet trim pictures in my books.
I crochet a lot. It takes time, but it also is relaxing.
I have also been on drugs. Pain meds, for the nerve pains around my incision. You know, the 12 inch monster across my abdomen.
Well the drugs have most likely induced the following project idea.
See the very first picture is stash. Lustersheen yarn stash. Free lustersheen yarn stash. And the orange and purple is already allocated for a project. But the other, those soft neutral, most definitely me colored skeins, 19 of them, has no such calling.
I was looking through my inspiration books, I had taken percocet, it was late, I was in make my living room over mode,and I had a brainstorm.......
I can take my wallpaper border down, repaint these walls, and put up some crochet trim.
Looking back on this today I realize how stupid this idea is. I think.
Because I am taking about 1375 inches of 9 to 12 in wide trim. Yes 114 linear feet of the stuff.
Somebody please bring me back to reality -------- confirm that this idea is CRAZY. Certifiably crazy.
I am painting at work. I love my wall color. More than likely I will use it at home.
Pittsburg Paint --- french grey linen walls and walnut grove trim.
I have a beautiful life. I want a beautiful home.
Tuesday, June 08, 2010
And so I pondered and pondered the idea. I decided that happily ever after is a little too broad and unattainable feeling to me. I was stunned by my diagnosis, but the surprise element to the cancer word has had me work on my perspective a lot. Plus I had couch time and bed time and porch time where I could sit still and really think about this.
What is happy? Am I happy? What can I change that will make me more happy? Is happy attainable? For me? For anyone else?
Deep ponderings......scary ponderings...... ponderings that require action.
So I decided - to look at it every day. Not in the happily ever after broad sense of the word, but in HAPPILY TODAY. That feels much better to me. I can make that fit. If something goes seriously wrong, and everyone knows it will, it won't ruin ever after, it just affects today. Guess what? This is exactly the same thing as take it one day at a time, it just feels different to be focused on happily today. If I can string a series of happily todays in sequence, I reach happily this week, then happily this month, and so on. Then the glitches don't feel so heavy either.
So that is where I landed in my ponderings. Yup, I am quite happy. I can decide to change things that will add to my happiness as opportunities come along. For me, happy is about accepting exectly what is happening right now. Keeping that perspective will continue to add happiness to each day.
Did anything change? Nope - still got bills. Still have a Man that sometimes makes me nuts. Teenage girls - check on that too. Medical issues - all of that. But I AM VERY HAPPY. TODAY.
Now for pictures of details that I have noticed that make me happy.
Jen's Garland. Going to do my own version in fabric for the porch. Think about prayer flags. Dominique Browning says it best so I am copying this from her new blog -- SLOW LOVE LIFE
"prayer flags do not actually carry prayers to gods. They are used to promote peace, compassion, strength, and wisdom.Tibetans believe the prayers and mantras will be blown by the wind to spread good will to everyone. The prayers of a flag become a permanent part of the universe as the images fade from exposure to the elements. Just as life moves on and is replaced by new life, Tibetans renew their hopes for the world by continually mounting new flags alongside the old. This act symbolizes a welcoming of life changes and an acknowledgement that all beings are part of a great ongoing cycle."
Gonna hang banners.
Monday, June 07, 2010
I was flat of my back recovering when Jen up and had some big events in her life. She married the love of her life, and turned 40 all around those same few days.
I should have been ready ahead of time to send her something but, in normal fashion, I procrastinated. Then the "Surprise you have kidney cancer" thing happened. Well I have struggled with going back to work and needing lots of extra rest and .......
Well FINALLY - her gift is ready to go and I have a full blown post to go with it.
Thanks to all those who emailed me to see if I was alright. This has just really been frustrating to me. I am used to going full speed ahead and that just ain't happening right now.
Anyway --- show and tell.
I gathered various scraps of paper. My three favorite Spellbinders dies. The Classic Scalloped Rectangles, Flying Beauties, and Ribbon Tag Trio.